FRIDAY (!!!)
these few days had been... pretty average?
they certainly werent fantastic i guess.
work's mundane but im still rly thankful to get a job like this to last me till the end of June!
but tht also made me qt certain tht im not cut out for accountancy.
not tht i applied for it anyw...
or tht i can get into the course in the first place...
me & shunwei felt dreadful at the thought of continuing wht we're doing nw for the next.. 40 years?
okay maybe not 40years but i dont think we can even survive 1 year.
really.
it felt more like a joke to me for now.
:x
i will be qt contented to last till 30th june before i stop work.
but of course thgs may change in the future la.
uncertainties & possibilities are everywhere.
& my life...
there were gd times & bad times.
putting work aside,
i felt crappy on some days.
because of thgs tht happened.
& it was the first time out of 6++ years tht i snapped at my dear ong.
thinking back i rly dont knw wht happened to me tht day.
i didnt used to be someone who'll snap at people for reasons.
even if the reasons are valid...
i used to be the kind who'd keep quiet
& probably just stay glum to show tht im unhappy w the way thgs are.
and hey, its ong pei ying (!!!)
6 years & still gg.
thought this is pretty shocking news???
HMM.
BUT IM GLAD EVERYTHG'S ALRIGHT NW (: (:
LOVEYOUSTILLWOMAN :D
bad days came one aft another.
seriously...
lets not even talk abt the quarreling w parents part. -.-
screwed up stuffs.
& today it kinda struck me tht im the only child of my family.
i need to support my parents in the future.
i cannot afford to go to a course tht has poor career prospects.
BUT ITS NT LIKE I CAN AFFORD TO BE CHOOSEY.
sigh. :(
i think shunwei's right.
you cant hv the best of the both worlds.
i mean, you can when yr grades are great.
but its not happening to me as you can see.
interests VS money.
& the worst part is.
im not even accepted by any course yet.
damn?
okay, whtever i said makes me seem like a money-faced freak.
but i guess.... its quite real.
BUT OF COURSE,
there's little (smtimes huge) thgs tht make my day just that bit better.
like how ong nvr fails to be there for me. :D
like how me & shunwei chat so much abt random stuffs during work just to let the day go by fast.
like how sze always gets me 'high-ing' with her (LIBRARYYYYYY!)
like how the cleaner auntie told me to "jiayou!" in the early morning.
(SUPER RANDOMNESS)
like how the morning sky was beautiful today.
(& i asked jiankai to look up to see when he's on his way to tekong LOL anti-climax)
like how today's 2404 day!
like how i had several fun times w my current colleagues AKA py's jc friends.
(i got to knw them much better nw & lunchtime's always funny. we kept talking abt 2012 & death recently? ._. )
like how i've been talking more to a pri schmate DCJH nw & we're pretty much experiencing the same probs. feels like the gd old times. hahah. but it has been... almost 10years? (:
like how friends like paedophile are willing to do that bit more for me.
like how the books i've borrowed these days are really good. & give me the much-needed breaks from reality!
I LOVE SOPHIE KINSELLA'S CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET ALRIGHT.
& OKAY, THERE'S MANYMORE.
i think i really miss hanging out with che sam & ven.
it has been so long since i last saw them! :(
but at least che's working at tanjong pagar nw :D
& im getting to see the stjohn girls on 9th.
i realised im not even talking to my JC class nw?
um yeah.
other than the 3girls.
i miss cracking stupid jokes with sam then the 4 of us start laughing tgt! ohman.
on a random note,
i caught Fast&Furious4 ytd.
it was qt good i thought!
& then paedophile says its awful, other than the prettywomen, music, nice cars)
BUT ADDING THEM TGT MAKES IT A MOVIE ALR, NO?
(okay im biased. the handsome guy in there. PAUL WALKER. >:D)
(:
pray hard wednesday's interview goes well for me.
i shldnt brood too much over it.
aftall its still gd tht i try my best for it.
KEEP GOING, RACHEL.
DONT FALL. :(
